Kicking Soot

“The painfully real track [Kicking Soot] beautifully divides itself between captivating harmonies and punctuating lyric.”

— Nanobot Rock Reviews

It's not the cold that wants to creep into my bed
I've got a fleece blanket to keep me warm instead
It's not the endless conversation
That one day came to an end
I've got a good book about robots in the future that my brother gave me
And the phone number of every friend
It's not the notion of forever
We never bought the fantasy so callow and trite
We'd both learned the hard way, "love will come to an end"
So why am I so surprised we were right?

Ripe with desire
It don't sit right but I stand corrected
If love is a fire,
Then we lift a foot, kick the soot
Watch us as we stomp it out
We stomp it out
We stomp it out

Laughed a lot, never fought
Always kept composure
Always good at keeping smart even from the start
Never let our feet off the ground

On that day we took a vow
Said, "Not forever, it's just for now"
"Now" it seems came and went
What is left when "now" is spent?
I don't feel the resolution
Just calculated execution
I might take back all I said
What if I wanna lose my head?
(Kept composure, feet on the ground)
Maybe I wanna cry and scream,
Grippin’ to a dyin’ dream
I'll go down with the ship
No life preserver on my hip
(Not forever, just for now)
Maybe I'd like to argue
Just so I can talk to you
I think we should stay upset
Once we're not, there's nothing left
(On that day, took a vow)
It's not the cold or silence here,
Not the empty atmosphere,
Not the missing conversation
Or instant physical sensation
(Not forever, just for now)
Not the love or lack there of
It's a little bit all the above
It's the tiny voice inside my chest,
Shrinking til in peace it rests

Ripe with desire
It don't sit right but I stand corrected
If love is a fire,
Then we lift a foot, kick the soot
Watch us as we stomp it out
We stomp it out
We stomp it out

While young romance can be a roller coaster of passion, mature relationships can become overly practical and calculated. After calmly reasoning together that it was time to break up, my lover and I terminated our partnership. I felt emotion begin to swell. That fiery energy that was absent in the relationship materialized into "Kicking Soot". As the song progresses, pensiveness grows into desperation. In the second verse, two voices singing over each other with contradicting messages is meant to demonstrate the inner conflict of a broken-hearted person trying to cope.
- Jesse

Track 4 off of Willow Steps EP titled "A Truth Too Big to See"

Capo 4th fret

Verse:
Cadd9 | G (repeated many times with occasional Gmaj/F#)
D

Cadd9: x 3 2 0 3 0
Gmaj7/F#: 2 2 0 0 0 3